Still 31.

I don't want to be curious 

and I just want to be your friend 

but I really want to ask you something..

Have you ever dreamed of me?

and i don't mean with company. 

I hate company. 

I'm talking about me. Just ME. Exactly how I like it.

Also I saw you the other day staring at my lips, 

you have never taste them, right?

So I have a simple question 

and yes I am being curious 

and I don't want to be your friend..

would you mind if I make all your dreams come true?

31 days

It's fucking August and I feel cold most of the time.
I learned a lot of things about a lot of things. They made me sick.
Believe me, from now on I hate people.
Everybody will let you donw.
Every single one.


Well maybe my mom won't do it after all. But I will do it to her so whats the point anyway.
Shit will always be shit.

3 drinks later i said

"I draw an empty cycle.

I hope you understand."

Another Bad Morning.

 The moment when you drive alone in the morning and you start crying for no reason. You look around you feeling awkward, stop for a bottle of water and say “good morning” to yourself. 

Now you can start your day.

This, every fucking day.

Mornings are becoming the worst thing that ever happened to me.

Do you want to join me?

I don’t want to drive alone again..

The new.

I should have broken your heart.

Maybe then you could write me a poem.

Maybe then you could answer once your telephone.

Maybe then you could take me for a walk.

Or just talk to me like you used to.

But I know, I learn from the best.

I should see England and drink to new starts.

That worked for you, right?

If I am wrong please stop me.

I’m kind of drunk and this for sure wasn’t a good day.

But yes, it was nice to see you again.

It was nice to see that you feel better than me.

It was nice to talk to you.

In my dreams.

NEVER SAY GOODBYE BECAUSE GOODBYE MEANS GOING AWAY AND GOING AWAY MEANS FORGETTING.

I'm still in pain.

And i told him:

See? I dont need a relationship to become cynical!

3 days of my life.

I have NEVER been so scared.

Not even when you inform me that you needed some time alone. I wasn’t enough.

Not even when our father told us he doesn’t love us anymore, right before he passed out in the living room.

But then again the day that you will inform me that you love somebody else hasn’t come yet so NEVER say NEVER.

I will just say “until today”.